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Wow, I cannot believe I’m doing this but..
I think I’m going to give up the Internet for Lent. Click Read More if you’re interested…
Holy freaking crap. So I’ve been majorly struggling with what to give up for Lent. Last year, I gave up the Internet for Lent and it was difficult but a heck of a lot easier than it will be this year. First off, my blog had half as many followers and I didn’t really have a purpose for my blog like I do now. I didn’t even do the whole “Sunday-cheat” rule.
This year, my immediate thought was “anything but the internet.” And days went by and it got closer and closer and I thought of a thousand things to give up, but this one kept nagging me, mostly because I had such an intense desire NOT to do it. So tonight, I was again trying to figure out what the crap I was going to do for Lent since it starts tomorrow and I was showering (where the deepest thoughts come out of course) and it just hit me. What in the world is my reasoning for not giving up the internet?
Facebook = not really a problem.
Twitter = not really a problem, hard, but not too bad.
My biggest issues = Tumblr, Youtube, and Fanfic
Why not Tumblr? Well, all my followers and it’s a huge passion/hobby of mine and it makes me happy. Plus, TVD comes back way before Lent is over and HELLO, I might die if I can’t blog about it. But I think that’s the reason it’s compelling me to give it up. The fact that I rely on a WEBSITE that could easily shut down any day now. To be honest, I don’t even have that many followers. Besides, from a religious aspect (which I am in case you weren’t aware), I shouldn’t be putting this so high on my priority list. I spend HOURS of my life, my senior year, my last few months at home with family and friends, scrolling down a dash and reblogging pictures of fictional characters, and idk sometimes I just question what/who I’m living my life for.
I thought about blocking my internet for everything but two hours a day so at least I could still do stuff but not completely give it up, but idk that just seemed like a cop-out. Plus, I feel like if I give myself even a little lenience, I’ll forget all about my Lent resolution and give up trying.
So, after some careful consideration, I decided on my rules. I will do the Sunday cheat rule. I’ll load up my queue and do anything else that is needed on my blog (answer messages, post live, etc) on Sundays. I will also post one fanfic chapter on Sundays, so I can have all week to write it and it will stay fairly current. I will not go on Facebook or Twitter, period. Not to read, not on my phone or anything. I won’t keep up with people’s Youtube videos, period. I will only keep up with celebrity news on Sundays if I see it through Tumblr.
I will still be watching all my shows, even if I can only see them online. I just won’t be able to talk about them except for Sundays. I will also use the Internet for anything school-related or music purposes. Other than that…
I’m mostly posting this so you guys understand where I am. But yes, this is your cue to unfollow me if you’re not going to be happy with this. For those of you that stick with me, you deserve everything in the world, but I understand if you really only want to follow me if I’m gonna be able to regularly post. Know that my queue will still be on and any messages or follows I get will get sent to my email so I will see them. (PS. support messages are my favorite :) )
I love every single one of you all deeply and hope you can support me in this hard decision.
